You Can Choose Your Friends.... BUT Do They Choose You?

Here is a picture of some of my close friends and I in byron... I treasure them with my life!

I'm sure everyone has heard of the saying.... You can choose your friends, but you cant choose your family....
What if you have decided you really really like some1 but they just dont like you back.
If you really really want to be their close friend but they dont want to even be ur acquaintance.

Last week or so, a similar situation occurred with me.. Unfortunately, it was not as simple.
If you love overhearing gossip then this will be your blog of the year.

Sometimes you can’t help but repeat what people tell you in confidence. They end up broadcasting your opinion to anyone that seems interested... wouldnt be surprised if it was to the homeless person on george st!

Does it really need to be repeated if you don't like their new hair colour? Or you prefer their natural beauty?

Well......
What if your words are TOTALLY twisted, leaving you as the "baddy" who BITCHES!

Personally, for all you people who dont know me well.... Yes I have my odd occassion of bitching (what girls don't) BUT ever since i've left highschool... I've left most of my "bitchiness" there.

So, recently I had been trying to reunite with two of my old close friends who i lost contact with after high school.

I emailed
Messaged
MSN-ed
Emailed again....
MSN-ed again.....
But NOTHING!
Until........................... I got a MSN message saying something along the lines:
"Listen, I don't want to be your friend, stop emailing me and stop bitching about me"
I was SHOCKED! I had said nothing of the sort about her or my other old friend.. If anything i had been saying how i missed them etc etc. It's funny though, I know who told them... Who twisted every little word to make me look like the bad person. But it's OK... They couldn't help it.... They obviously have a sick problem and need to fix on any victim! It's OK... cause i know the truth.....

It's upsetting thou. You want to trust ppl. To see only the good in ppl. No bad intentions. You finish school, mature, surrounding yourself with nice friends you can trust, but somewhere along the way, you will always meet people who will bring you down.

It makes you hate the human race. Do they do it out of jealousy? Bordem? Sickeness? Bitchiness?

I'm not going to confront the person. No point. They won't change. And now i know not to trust them....
Next time, if i choose a friend i know....... make sure they choose me back. :)

THANKYOU FOR SMOKING!

Smoking is a DIRTY habit... Personally, I HATE IT! It smells and makes you feel oh so dirty!
So........
WHY
CANT
I
STOP!

its.crazy.
I watch tv and see some1 smoke, i feel like one.
I stress over assignments, i feel like one.
I fight with my bf, oh boy, i feel like one.
I go out for a drink, i feel like one.
I'm doing nothing at all, and yes, i feel like one.
its.crazy.

So.......
WHY
CANT
I
STOP!

I've been smoking on and off since i was 12! Imagine what my lungs look like :s ewwww
NO! but seriously... Enough is Enough! Apparently it's all in the mind.So is my mind that weak that it cant control my cravings, my urges, my DISGUSTING HABIT!

"People that smoke are stupid... With all the facts today about the damages of smoking, people still do it! Stupid people!" In the words of my mother.
She smoked for 10 years, 14 - 24. But apparently it was different... "Back in those days we didnt have the knowledge you have now" hmmmm

So.......
WHY
CANT
I
STOP!

Choke Me... Spank Me... Pull My Hair!

"OMG! I so just want him to cuff me to the bed!"
These are the exact words that were falling out of my close friends mouth just two days ago....
After thinking really hard about how to construct my sex podcast i spoke 2 my gf who yes, is extremelyyyy promiscious n LOVES SEX! (maybe even more than men) :S actually.... wait! did u kno that apparently women are more (dare i say it) horny than men.... weird!
what my gf said really got me thinking.. how many ppl hav sex fetishes? and what are they? hw extreme can they get?
It's weird to think ppl get turned on by abuse... back in the days when i was immature enough to think jerry springer was halarious i remember watching an episode about weird sex acts.. there was this one couple who used to vomit on eachother! LIKE HOW GROSE IS THAT! "ummm excuse me can u pass me the tissues while i clean ur vommit of my chest!"
Humans r weird. but wat is weird? is weird normal? what is normal?
It's so hard to judge human behaviour.. it's so hypocritical.. hw can some1 who likes cuff's judge a person who likes vomit?

Maybe we all have a bit of a sexual fetish inside us.... Sooo i guesss humans should stop judging...... n start.... Choking, Spanking, Pulling Hair ;) hahaha

Whatever rocks your boat!

Musical Genius!!!!!

For all you anti-religion ppl.... This song is not inflicting religion on to u :)

Ever since I was like 8 years old I have been obsessed and passionate about music....
I think everyone should hav a chance to listen to this amazing voice - Ben Harper. If i could meet one musician it would be him! He is truley beautiful.... I literally fall in love with his voice :)

Healing to the soul ;)

Life is so hard these days.
Everything is completely materialistic...
The thing i love most about music is that just one track can take away all your thoughts....
It leaves me centred.
Peaceful.
Spiritual.
Passionate.

Music, lyrics, are able to get inside you and affect you like nothing can.
It's like another shoulder to cry on.
Something that will always understand you... Whateva mood ur in :)

This is one of my favourite songs, When she Believes.... If you enjoyy listening to him check out hisss other songs :) eg sexual healing, walk away, lonely day, my own to hands etc etc etc :)


The good lord is such a good lord
With such a good mother too
They have blessed me
In the good graces of you
I have heard a hundred violins crying
And I have seen a hundred white doves flying
But nothing is as beautiful
As when she believes in me

How good it must feel
To be so young and free
And a song that pleases a queen
Will always please me
I have heard the wisest of wisdom
And I have dined in palaces and kingdoms
But nothing is as beautiful
As when she believes in me

Now, all of life
Is just passing the time
Until once again
Your eyes look into mine
I have been adored by a stranger
And I have heard the whispering angel
But nothing is as beautiful
As when she believes in me

i LOVE my shadow!

Don't you wish you had a life of a cat?
You would have no worries....
I wish i were a cat
All i'd do is lay in the sun

I love my shadow!
I wish i were a cat so i would never have to worry about clothes....
I wish i were a cat so i can come and go as i please!

Imagine how amazing it would be if you were a cat...
A paradise of purring :)

I Love my shadow.....

HELPP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sooooooooooooo